Last night I dreamt you were with me, finally I could breathe.

Ting

2009-07-21T03:17:00.002+08:00

TING,

You never fail to brighten up my day.
Put a smile on my face.
Make me feel so insecure when you're not around,
Make me feel so secure in your arms.
I just want to be with you.. always.. always.......

CHAN RAK THUUHR!

JUB JUB,
Jasmine.

Yawns

2009-07-08T09:26:00.000+08:00

Another sleepless night.

A New Day.

2009-07-02T00:05:00.004+08:00

I'm Sorry.

Jen: For all the troubles I've caused you, letting you take the blame when it isn't.

Eunice: For coming in and spoiling everything.

Verena: For not contacting you for an entire year, we would have known each other better and hence closer as friends.

Thompson: For having to be so worried about me. I have failed to be a good friend to you as compared to what a dear friend you have been to me.

Joann: For not showing more concern than I should.

Shirley: For not being there at the two lowest points of your life. One for abandoning you and the other for not giving enough.

Jun Mei: For changing till you don't really seem to know who I am anymore. But rest assured, I'm still and will always be the same friend you once know.

Priscilla: For having a bad start to our friendship. From the bottom of my heart, you are everything to me and more.

I've been thinking a lot lately.
Much stuff has happened.
Too much to say, too little time.
It's time for a brand new day.
Time for a brand new me.
You think you know me, but you have no idea.

Fin.

True Friend.

2009-06-30T03:31:00.002+08:00

TRUE FRIEND.

True friend cares for you
understand your feeling,
stand up for you when you're being accused and not keep quiet.

True friend will not find you only at their lowest peak.
True friend will tell you your bad points
True friend will slap you and wake u up when you're lost.

Thanks Tom P, for what it's worth, I know you care.
But rest assured, I'm alright.

WTF!

2009-06-30T01:14:00.005+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?! WTF WTF IS GOING ON?! JUST FUCKING TELL ME!

Reality Check:

1. I treat people I care about genuinely.
2. I only do so much for people I love.
3. If I don't care about you, I wouldn't even give a shit.
4. Just tell me WHAT THE FUCK is going on?!
5. Why do you always have to look on the down side of what I do?!
6. Haven't I told you before, I'd always go the extra mile for people who are important to me?
7. Why won't you understand what I'm doing?
8. I just wish I knew what is on your mind, so we can lay everything out on the table.
9. I want to salvage this, you're an important friend.
10. I hope you feel the same way too.

P/s This hasn't been a good year. But I have faith, my time will come.

You Are Not Alone.

2009-06-30T00:17:00.004+08:00

You Are Not Alone.

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

I never thought things could turn out this way,
Regret's the word I keep hearing myself say.
Ever since you came into my life, you never failed to make me smile.
Now I wished time stood still at the point when you held me in your arms,
Everything's crashing down 'cos I know that day's not going to come.

I regret, I really regret this. Why did I say the things I said? I shouldn't have, I know I shouldn't.
I let you slip out of my hands, I let you walk away.
Now you're going, going, gone.

P/s R.I.P Michael Jackson. You are, and will always be THE SENSATION.

shit

2009-06-26T05:34:00.002+08:00

I just read something I should not have seen, I feel like a fucking loser. Didn't know you'd hate me this much.

One More Day

2009-06-26T03:32:00.002+08:00

One More Day. Well I saw you fall back once love.

But I can't stay.
Stay like this weather swirls,
Cause you've become sick like this winter girl.
Two more days, just two more.

Now I see.
Don't you say that I've gone crazy.
Because I haven't gone crazy yet.
I just lost my mind,
But I still got you.

Stay up late so you're sure.
Sure that I wont stray too far,
But surely that got too hard.
Love is not for me, I promise.
One more day, just one more.

I'd Stay If I ever could,
Stay if I ever could.
And pick up your pieces babe,
Cause there's never a perfect day.
I just lost my mind,
But I still got you.

Goodbye.

2009-06-26T03:24:00.002+08:00

Thought.

Dreading for Sunday's gig to come. I screwed up, badly. I don't know why I can't seem to get the pitch right. I feel as if I've let the guys down. I lack confidence, loads of it. Got me wondering whether this is even my thing, at all.

Leaving for KL later. Will be back on Sunday. It's going to be a tiring day for me. Rushing back to Singapore from 9am. Gig at 7pm. Oh god, give me the strength to not give up.

Can't wait for the camp instructor thing to kick in, finally something I enjoy.

Friends will be missed this weekend, someone significant a little more.

Get well soon Ver.
Love you much.

TAN KU KU!

2009-06-25T01:50:00.002+08:00

SIMPLICITY IS BLISS.

I didn't expect things to turn out this way. I guess it could be for the better?
Damn I think I'm falling for you instead... teehee..

dad

2009-06-23T01:42:00.001+08:00

P/s My dad and I aren't talking again. Wonder how long it'll last this time. I HATE FATHER'S DAY.

Random

2009-06-23T01:20:00.004+08:00

FML.

I have decided to stop blogging stupid things cos IRENE TAN KUKU reads my blog and she WILL NOT stop teasing me about it.. So here goes,

Caught a movie with PUSSYLLA called I LOVE YOU, MAN. Awesome show. Haven't laughed so hard in ages. Or have I? I don't know, I think I have.

Kervon text me today saying she saw me. That was earlier on before the movie. Was supposed to head to Spins and chill before the movie started but Pris wanted to see who she was (or apparently according to other people; I'm a stalker) *rolls eyes* so we ended up at Gloria's to have cake and iced chocolate while waiting for TAN KU KU and CAT. Funny people, really. They always brighten up my day/night.

After the show we headed out for a stick, and guess who we saw? Yup, K. This time I saw her, the unforgettable hair of hers. Ok, her's the thing, I chickened out. Yes, I'm a total loser. I don't even dare to say "Hi" fuck I really suck man. Hence, the blog title "FML". This entire post is revolving around this acronym. According to Pris, she thought they saw me but all in all I was a fucking pussy. period. Moving on...

They left me hanging by a thread for the past week and finally tomorrow's judgement day. I'm going to be screwed by 3 lecturers and I'm seriously scared to shit out of. I'm praying hard and keeping my fingers crossed so they wouldn't kick me out of SIP. I think I will break down. Seriously. And poor Ethel's going to be the victim who's gonna see me break down. Which I hope is not the case. I really hope that in the end I will break THE GOOD NEWS to her instead of THE WORST. I'm dreading every minute that passes by knowing it's a minute closer to facing my worst nightmare.

Finally, I was pretty taken aback that you guys went to butter that night and honestly I felt pretty left out. Thinking that Ver and all were there too? Oh well, I guess I'm in no position to complain. No position at all.

The end.

AGAIN?!

2009-06-21T00:57:00.005+08:00

You Are So Special.

Butter=Chaos
Play=Amazing
Gisela=Hotness
Over crowding=Pissed off
Guys trying to dry hump you when you're making out with a girl=UTTERLY DISGUSTING
That HOT bung with that eyebrow piercing=Priceless

Why do I ALWAYS fall for people who ALREADY have someone in their hearts?
At this point of time, do I sit around doing nothing and wait for history to slap back in my face again OR fight for my happiness risking it being backfired?
I don't know. Help me? I need guidance.

Giving you advice, helping you to get her. Do you know darling, it's hurting inside.
"What's meant to be yours will happen eventually, if it's not yours it'll never be." or so I've been told.
One policy for me, "I'll be happy as long as you're happy."
This will stay with me always. I feel so stupid. I wanna do so many things for you, so when you smile I'll know it's all worth it. I want you to know how much I appreciate you, the fact that you're so dear to me. When I think back, to me you're everything but probably to you I'm nothing. You are all I see but sometimes I feel so invisible.

Could it be? Would it be? If the roles were switched that night, would you have noticed me instead? I don't know. It's too late anyways. If the day comes when you succeed in what you hope to happen, I'll wish you well in happiness. And yes, my love and care for you still implies.

The decision is yet to be made. Time will tell, water will flow and one day MAYBE I'll be special to someone special like you.

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

Sit with me
Come and play
I need you so near
Stay awhile for a day
Maybe two have no fear
What I am is not all good
It's not all bad it's okay
Time has come wish we could
Get it back it's too late

And I miss you the most
And I miss you the most

Sing to me once again
In your room like old days
Speak to me it depends
On how you do it all ways
Bring me back little smiles
Funny ways you speak to me
Bring me back all your wiles
Whimsical fancies

And I miss you the most
And I miss you the most

Still you.

2009-06-14T19:11:00.002+08:00

It's Still You.

A quote from someone special:
"we should all be so lucky as to have someone who will never let you go.
the ultimate legacy is to leave someone who will love you forever."

Yes I really with I can make you understand this fact. That I can do all this for you too. I tried to let you go, I really really tried.. But I failed. I tried to let someone new in but you're all I think of. I miss you do much I really do.... After I saw you at cine and was too afraid to say "HI", that's when I realised my whole world becomes more beautiful just by seeing you.. from afar.....

Everything I've said still implies, I'll always be there for you.. always.... you know?! You texted me a few days back and I got reminded of the first message you ever text me... you sent "morning sunshine." You know how fortunate I feel waking up to your message? Brightens my entire day.

You blogged about me. But the previous post was about her. I'm not upset, I'm not hurt. I'm actually very relieved you even blogged about me at all. I knew no matter how much you love her, at least I meant something too.

"I thought I could get over you, I thought wrong. I can give you all the love that you deserve and even more. I just need a chance to."

I Love You.

David Cook - Come Back To Me.

2009-06-06T18:40:00.002+08:00

Come Back To Me.

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

I can't get close if your not there
I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can't fix you i can't save you
Its something you have to do

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me

David Cook-always be my baby.

2009-06-02T03:49:00.002+08:00

Always be my baby.

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time cant erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my,....my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
You will always be my baby

to you.

2009-06-02T03:38:00.004+08:00

To K,
I love you,
I'll wait for you.
If you can do it for her all these years, I believe I can do the same thing.
It's going to be hard, I know it would. But baby, believe me when I say it's worth it.

With love,
Jasmine.

Lucky

2009-05-06T03:55:00.003+08:00

LUCKY

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees

Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

2 years!

2009-04-28T22:15:00.001+08:00

Woo! After 2 years I'm BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!